i wish i was thin, a fat girls guide to life

A message from the other side?

2008-05-16T11:43:01+02:00

Well, sort of....

Me & the girls went to our local theatre last night, it was an evening with Donna Stewart, who is a medium. Now most of the night was quite good, a few people got messages from family members in the Spirit World, i got a bit emotional when a girl got a message from her grandfather.

Donna asked for a volunteer halfway through the "show", and for some stange reason i found that me hand was in the air, and i was picked to take part in a small experiement. I was handed a pack of colour cards, and asked to pick the five colours that in liked the most, Donna expl,ained that colours can tell you alot about the person you are. I picked a really strong green, a gorgeous coral, a magenta, a brown and a fresh yellow card.

Donna expalined to the audience that I was incredibly loyal when it came to love and friendship, and if i was ever betrayed byt a lover or firend that iu was the sort of person who couldn't fogive or forget, that i asked for the same loyalty of people that i give to them, i said yes, thats like me, and the girls i was with all nodded their heads. I'm a good listener, i like to help my friends if they need it. She then moved onto saying that i am looking for a new job, i said that i have a new job.

She said that i could turn my hand to anything, and be quite good at whatever i tried, but that i'm not confident enough in myself and not to doubt myself when it comes to my skills. She mentioned decorating, and knocking through walls, and a possible move, i said possibly, as my house if up for sale and has been for almost a year.

She then mentioned gardening, i said nope, thats not me, i like to sit out in the garden if i get the chance and if the sun is out, but i'm not very good at gardening, she then explained that my grandmother had come through and she was being shown some wellies, that why she thought of gardening, i said that both of my grandmothers were alive and well, and that my mum is the gardener and not me. "Well this could be a message for your mum then, i've read the colours for you, but i fell this woman is your great grandmother".

"So you like horses, i have an image of mucking out stables, and caring for horses" NOPE!!! I'm terrified of horses, ever since i was about six and one bit me at London Zoo.

My part in the experiment ended there, my spirit had pulled back, and she thanked me for my participation.

Now, i only really went along to see what the fuss was about, my friend Nicki had seen Donna Stewart before and told me how marvelous the evening was, i'm a pretty sckeptical, i'm an athiest, i'm not sure that there is an afterlife, let alone people coming back to say hi! I'm not saying it doesn;t happen, but i want proof, i want it to happen to me, before i can believe!

It was a fun evening, and I would reccomend anyone to go and see Donna if they get the chance. Visit http://www.donnastewart.co.uk/ for more information.

Caroline
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the awful truth

2008-05-13T22:37:32+02:00

the first weigh in - 13th May 2008

my current weight - 17st 1lb / 108.6kg
my height - 5ft 4inches / 1.63m
my bmi - 40.8
my ideal weight - between 8 stone 5lb and 10 stone 6lb

i couldn't pry myself out of bed this morning to go swimming before work, so a gym session after work would have to be enought for today. i really wanted to swim, it wakes me up for the day ahead, and i fell fresh and alert. my sister laura has promised she would go to the gym with me sometime this week, i could really use a gym buddy. laura is super focused, shes motivated, strong willed and a size 8, always been skinny, where the hell she got her genes from i'll never know, as my dad is "tubby" and mum has yo-yo dieted since i was a kid.

anyway, i'm tired and the earlier i go to bed, the earlier i'll be able to get up!

nighty night all!

caroline
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the beginning

2008-05-13T21:36:33+02:00

well hello boys and girls, welcome to my life,

i'm caroline, i've just turned thirty, i'm single, live alone (unless you count the hamster) and i'm overweight, i'm being quite serious here, i'm not one of those girls that isn't fat, but thinks she is, i'm currently 17 stone 1 pound, which is the heaviest i've ever been.

now i used to be thin, throughout high school i was underweight at 7 stone, i wasn't super active, i did p.e like every other kid, i could eat what i wanted and not put on a pound. my eating probably caught up with me at about 17, i became a couch potato and like all the other kids, discovered beer!

i've tried diets before, none have worked. so in my thirtieth year, i made a promise to myself, to join my local gym, lose some weight, and hopefully find myself a guy, and be a bit happier. now, money has always been tight, but i joined the local gym at the start of the month, i've had my induction sessions at the gym and am booked in to try a couple of cardio-kickboxing classes.

not only am i going to the gym, but before work twice a week i've been swimming, thats right, i've been in the pool at 6:30 in the morning and i normall get out about 7:45 to get ready for work.. i really enjoy swimming, i always have, when i was 14 i was offered a place in the towns swimming club, but boys got in the way and i never joined, its probably one thing i regret from my childhood.

anyway, my friends and family have been asking how the weightloss has been going, so to keep a track of things, i have set up this blog, now i'm not gonna become completly calorie obsessed, or do anything stupid like start starving myself, but i am going to post updates of my weight, bmi (body mass index) my gym schedule and general feelings for the whole world to read.

drop me a message and give me feedback, good or bad, god knows that i need it!

caroline
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